My Story

I don't know how I began to close with him. Even though we just chatting about simple things, I fall for him, yeah I LOVE HIM.

I try to lie to my heart, but it just futile. Like the other woman, I wanna know what does he feel for me. But, I just a girl, so I tell him about what I think and what I feel. I asked him what if I wanna be someone who important in his life, whether he would accept me.

I can't believe, when he said "I respect with you, too. I won't say what you don't want, and i could accept you, but I don't know what should I do".

Fly, yeah, it's like in the heavens, but also still in the darkness. I hesitate with his decision. When I try to brave, I smile, I laugh, and I tell about something to make them happy. I was like using a mask. Sometimes when you think that happen is the real happen, actually it just counterfeit.

One day, I made a mistake, and he was very upset about that. I tried to explain what the real happen, and i'm grateful that he can understand.

I've done, also i've said what it should, now, I understand something previously very confusing and difficult for me to believe. All my dreams will come true when I believe, and I wanna try, because

"ACTUALLY ALL OF IT COME FROM YOURSELF, 'cause LIFE IS A CHOICE, YOU'LL GET GREAT RREWARDS OF WHAT YOU'VE DONE BEFORE"

Everyone must work hard to get what their want, and sometimes get lose, eventhough not easy to move on, but we must try it. And although I've often said if I could get what I want, I should do that, too. And this's the truly me.

Now, what ever about him, I won't bother him again. I studied the character of everyone, as well as with himself. Maybe I know what he was thinking, and I must understand it. Sometimes i feel it's like a game, and he's the best player, he could make me look like a stranger and stupid.

"Don't leave me alone !! cause i'll miss you so much !! Don't leave me alone !! cause i'll be difficult to find someone like you !! Don't leave me alone, when you have been trust me !! cause it'll be so hurt !!"

That's always in my mind, and I feel so vulnerable when it.

"I don't wanna close my eyes, I don't wanna fall asleep. I'd still miss you. Every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure. I just wanna stay and spent my time with you. Forever and Ever" 

I said it when I feel lonely, and now not only lonely but also lost.

You're the best of everything you do, I'll try to understand why you do it to me, actually you won't like this if you don't have the reason. Definitely I'll get my happiness, hmm maybe, not just me, but us, we'll get our happines, SOMEDAY.

I believe all of this will be better.

 We never know what God had designed for our lives, and a life to me come what may. 

"I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be now gonna let to late, shine on me.. now I found who I'm, there's no way to hold it in.. no more hiding who I wanna be.. this is me !!"

-THIS IS ME, by : Demi Lovato-